I woke up to the sound of my sister playing Ragnarok, it was 8:00AM in the morning, I've always felt lazy on Sundays so I stayed on bed for a few more minutes before I decided to get up and cook my brunch, I had hotdogs for brunch, well anyway so after that I went back to our room and I checked on my Ragnarok bot to see how my character was doing, when suddenly the phone rang, it was my Aunt Lin, she was looking for my mom, so I brought the phone to my mom's room then I continued playing Ragnarok, I didn't mean to eavesdrop but for some reason my parents` use a moderately loud voice when they are on the phone, well anyway their conversation was about my Uncle (Aunt Lin's husband) it's about his mistress who's been asking him for money a lot, the issue goes as, like my Aunt was asking for some advice from my mother because that bitch Michelle, my uncle's mistress, has been obligating my uncle to pay for her bills, in short she's been asking a lot of money from my uncle lately, up to the point that my uncle had a mild stroke just recently, maybe it was because he's been thinking too much about his two families, pathetic really, I don't know why men have this weakness, why do they have to be so polygamous? I find it really irritating, I mean okay we all have our own weakness, but in this case it's not fair, specially for his legal wife, it's simply two-timing which is never a good thing, which leads me to another thought, the muslims do practice polygamy, it's perfectly okay with them as long as they can support their families, but my uncle is not a Muslim! Sigh, anyway, so the good part came when my mom put the phone down, and she called this girl named Che, she's a friend of Michelle's who doesn't want to tolerate her anymore, so she sided with my mom because she wanted to help, okay so they talked about Michelle and what she's been doing, but this is one thing I like about my mom, even though she may seem cold at times she has a really kind heart, first of all she told Che that she doesn't really hate Michelle because nobody wanted her to be like that, nobody wants a messed up life, and the one that really made me think was when she said that, If ever my uncle would choose Michelle, my uncle is already 58 and Michelle is just as old as I am, she's just 24 (Just a thought, I would certainly not go for a guy in his late 50s) where would their relationship go? My mom doesn't believe Michelle would love him in the long run, I don't think so too, she just likes my uncle because she still has a use for him, and my uncle is simply stupid, his family loves him, I don't know what else is it that he's looking for, when he grows old and weak, I high doubt that Michelle would still care for him, but his real family will, but then again it's his life... all we can do is give him some advice, but in the end it's still his prerogative.Okay why bother with the topic? It made me think about another ex-boyfriend of mine, it was five years ago, I was 19 years old, I met this guy through my friend Charles, through a phone conference, his name is Eric something... I can't believe I forgot his last name because he always refers to himself as Eric Last Name lol, maybe he's proud of his family or something, let's just call him Eric, so I met him that time then he asked for my number and started calling me, he was a sweet guy, he told me that he's managing their own family business, and that he's 28, well he's a vain guy, smooth skin, he dresses nicely, so I said cool, so one day he asked me out, he said he'd pick me up at 3pm, so I said cool, so there I was fixing my hair getting ready for a date, when my celly rang so I picked it up, it was Eric, he said he's parked in front of my house, so I went out of my room grabbed my backpack, gave my mom a goodbye kiss and went to his car, I was of course nervous, like most first meetings, of course a lot of things would cross your mind like What's he like? How does he look like? Does he find me attractive? Do I look okay? Hahaha! am paranoid really, so I opened the door to his car then got in the passenger seat, so then I looked at him, he looks okay, but he looks a little shy, so since he picked me up I just said "Hi, how are you?" then he replied without moving his head "I'm fine thank you, I hope you like my car" then he looked at me from head to toe as if he was checking me out, so I just gave him a smile then I said "Let's go", he told me that his car's running low on gas, so we had to go to a gasoline station, when we were there, we were talking about his business and my schooling and stuff like that, then he reached for a backpack at the back of his car and took out a Daffy Duck stuffed toy, he said it was for me (I love stuffed toys) so it was a big plus, I thanked him, and he gave me a smile, I was able to get a better glimpse of his face when he smiled at me, he looks really kind-hearted and gentle, then after that we grabbed some food from Burger King, then he brought me to this place in Antipolo, it was a really serene place, I think the place is called Cloud 9? I forgot, so he ordered some food and started talking more about us, like what I like, what I dislike, what he likes and dislikes, what turns me on?... You know stuff that you talk about on first dates, the typical getting to know each other stuff, so then after that we went back to the car, getting ready to go home, he asked me if he can kiss my hand, damn! he's really sweet, then he kissed my left hand in a very gentle and elegant way, so I just smiled, then when I got home he said that he wanted to see me again, and that's where it all began, we went out a lot, until after about 2 or 3 weeks, he called me and he was crying, he kept on telling me that he loves me so much and that he wished that he had just met me a long time ago, why just now? I can still remember so memorably when he told me "Why did you come into my life just now?... Why didn't I meet you when I was younger?" So in a funny way I told him "Come on Eric, we still have a lot of time! lol" then he said he has a confession to make, he told me that he's not 28 but he's 30, so I said that's not much of a difference and it's okay, so he was happy with the result of his confession, so days passed by, we got to the part where our differences are coming out, he doesn't want me to wear sleeveless shirts anymore, he even added that I do that because I love the attention, he should be proud that people look at me, I want to look good for him, so we argued about that, we argued about his brother who's always asking money from him as if he was obliged to give him some, and about him being so full of himself, you know I guess I got irritated that everytime he will address himself he'd do it using his full name Eric Something! Eric Something is not like that! Don't you trust Eric Something darling? Sigh... Well he's also too bolero, I mean that's alright if he's pulling my leg and stuff like that, but it was different, like he was promising that he'd buy me a new cellphone, and that he's going to get a new car... I think he said that he was going to get an Expedition, I'm not a materialistic person really, I'm just vain, I just want a guy who's going to be there for me... Well after a month he told me that he has another confession to make, and that this is going to be the last one, so I interrupted him in a semi-irritated voice and said "What? That you're married?", he said no, then he told me that he's already 35, this time I really got pissed and told him, "You know what? I can't handle any more of your lies Eric, you told me the first time we met that you're just 28, then after a week you became 30 and now you're telling me you're 35! What's next after a few more weeks you're gonna be 40? 45?? 50?!" I exploded like a bomb that day and I told him that I cannot live with a relationship that's built on lies, so I broke up with him, he hated me for that, but of course being a 19 year old teenager, I was immature, I fought back and told him that he's a liar,
and now just recently, I thought about it, so that's why he told me that he wished that he'd just met me a long time ago, when he was younger, he was scared that this day would come, well wherever he is now, I wish him all the best, and I'm sorry, maybe we weren't meant to be, forgive me.
December 25 2005, 21:06:59 UTC 6 years ago